Background:
THE great constant of my life, one that drove my sibs & Mom into the stratosphere of irked, was my unremitting attempt to figure out the gist of my family's core dynamics, because they never ever made sense to me.
Not as a little kid, not as a teen, not as a young adult, not as a grown up.
Wasn't after fault-finding or recriminations, just a core understanding of what felt to me like... to this day, I don't have the words to say how it felt. Not sure if there even IS a word, at least in the English language.
Thank goodness for getting older! And for Mom passing right before my 50th b-day. Age & no longer being !st & foremost a daughter (yep, even before wife) opened the way to cease & desist
my ceaselessly futile attempts at understanding my family's blatantly byzantine dynamics.
Walked away - well, that was my intent, if not always my reality.
The only thing all that storm & stress had yielded was more stormy stress. It took until the past couple years, but was finally able to SEE that and then let go of the related, suck-you-in & drag-you-down issues.
Which was when the Universe was finally free to give me the BEST surprise birthday present EVER - Anna & her almost freaky people-mapping insights! Seriously - our first coaching session was the day after my b-day!!!
Coincidence?
Mere happenstance?
I think NOT!
Thank you, Universe ~ and keep all those blessings coming!!!
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