Have nailed my breath work for five days in a row - a mega achievement! Taking a well-earned bow...
Life is so deliciously exciting. Just discovered someone who develops science workshops for seniors (in groups) - and she lives in Media, "everyone's hometown"!! Just a hop, skip, and 60 minutes from here!
Bit by bit, it's come together. My thanks to my friends, to John for displaying the same endless patience that the Universe has shown, and the same constant inspiration & wise words.
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Monday, February 25, 2013
Sunday, February 24, 2013
Gotta Go
Jeremy's sermon today was based on a passage from Spiritual Experiences (aka Spiritual Diary). In discussing it with a friend who's about as steeped in the Writings as anyone on the planet, I learned that the majority of today's G.C. clergy believes that ANYTHING Swedenborg wrote is considered divinely inspired. Including the Spiritual Diary and Earths & the Universe.
Earths & the Universe? Seriously??
Am so outta there. It's time.
There are many beautiful teachings in the Writings which are part & parcel of my faith, but they are increasingly being supplanted by such heresies as believing in reincarnation and it's impossible that the 2nd part of Conjugial Love could even be remotely divinely inspired.
Time to bid farewell to spiritual allies who walk a road I left long whiles ago. Am off to find ones that actually walk the same road I do.
Thank you, Jeremy, for making it so much easier.
Earths & the Universe? Seriously??
Am so outta there. It's time.
There are many beautiful teachings in the Writings which are part & parcel of my faith, but they are increasingly being supplanted by such heresies as believing in reincarnation and it's impossible that the 2nd part of Conjugial Love could even be remotely divinely inspired.
Time to bid farewell to spiritual allies who walk a road I left long whiles ago. Am off to find ones that actually walk the same road I do.
Thank you, Jeremy, for making it so much easier.
Friday, February 22, 2013
Frosted
Mending Wall Robert Frost
Something there is that doesn't love a wall,
That sends the frozen-ground-swell under it,
And spills the upper boulders in the sun;
And makes gaps even two can pass abreast.
The work of hunters is another thing:
I have come after them and made repair
Where they have left not one stone on a stone,
But they would have the rabbit out of hiding,
To please the yelping dogs. The gaps I mean,
No one has seen them made or heard them made,
But at spring mending-time we find them there.
I let my neighbour know beyond the hill;
And on a day we meet to walk the line
And set the wall between us once again.
We keep the wall between us as we go.
To each the boulders that have fallen to each.
And some are loaves and some so nearly balls
We have to use a spell to make them balance:
"Stay where you are until our backs are turned!"
We wear our fingers rough with handling them.
Oh, just another kind of out-door game,
One on a side. It comes to little more:
There where it is we do not need the wall:
He is all pine and I am apple orchard.
My apple trees will never get across
And eat the cones under his pines, I tell him.
He only says, "Good fences make good neighbors."
Spring is the mischief in me, and I wonder
If I could put a notion in his head:
"Why do they make good neighbors? Isn't it
Where there are cows? But here there are no cows.
Before I built a wall I'd ask to know
What I was walling in or walling out,
And to whom I was like to give offence.
Something there is that doesn't love a wall,
That wants it down." I could say "Elves" to him,
But it's not elves exactly, and I'd rather
He said it for himself. I see him there
Bringing a stone grasped firmly by the top
In each hand, like an old-stone savage armed.
He moves in darkness as it seems to me,
Not of woods only and the shade of trees.
He will not go behind his father's saying,
And he likes having thought of it so well
He says again, "Good fences make good neighbors"
That sends the frozen-ground-swell under it,
And spills the upper boulders in the sun;
And makes gaps even two can pass abreast.
The work of hunters is another thing:
I have come after them and made repair
Where they have left not one stone on a stone,
But they would have the rabbit out of hiding,
To please the yelping dogs. The gaps I mean,
No one has seen them made or heard them made,
But at spring mending-time we find them there.
I let my neighbour know beyond the hill;
And on a day we meet to walk the line
And set the wall between us once again.
We keep the wall between us as we go.
To each the boulders that have fallen to each.
And some are loaves and some so nearly balls
We have to use a spell to make them balance:
"Stay where you are until our backs are turned!"
We wear our fingers rough with handling them.
Oh, just another kind of out-door game,
One on a side. It comes to little more:
There where it is we do not need the wall:
He is all pine and I am apple orchard.
My apple trees will never get across
And eat the cones under his pines, I tell him.
He only says, "Good fences make good neighbors."
Spring is the mischief in me, and I wonder
If I could put a notion in his head:
"Why do they make good neighbors? Isn't it
Where there are cows? But here there are no cows.
Before I built a wall I'd ask to know
What I was walling in or walling out,
And to whom I was like to give offence.
Something there is that doesn't love a wall,
That wants it down." I could say "Elves" to him,
But it's not elves exactly, and I'd rather
He said it for himself. I see him there
Bringing a stone grasped firmly by the top
In each hand, like an old-stone savage armed.
He moves in darkness as it seems to me,
Not of woods only and the shade of trees.
He will not go behind his father's saying,
And he likes having thought of it so well
He says again, "Good fences make good neighbors"
For shame - I can't recall for the life of me what Miss Vera (or was it Miss Lyris? I think it was Miss Vera, but not sure) taught about this poem. I do know that at 61, I thought it endorsed the idea of boundaries as making life easier to manage.
Gee, was I wrong. The last six lines really got to me - the image of the neighbor moving in darkness, unable to move past his father's (and probably grandfather's & great-grandfather's) adage, "Good fences make good neighbors."
Maybe one of the farm's originally had livestock. In that case, good fences definitely would make good neighbors (no one wants a cow wandering into your crops or munching down your garden). But the writer has an orchard & the neighbor grows pine trees.
The juxtaposition of the practical, dour neighbor & the whimsical writer delights me now way more than it did when I was a high school sophomore (probably completely missed it back then). "My apple trees will never get across and eat the cones under his pines, I tell him,"only to be answered with "Good fences make good neighbors."
Before I built a wall I'd ask to know
What I was walling in or walling out,
And to whom I was like to give offence.
Because he knows that, Something there is that doesn't love a wall, That sends the frozen-ground-swell under it, And spills the upper boulders in the sun; And makes gaps even two can pass abreast.
Even he is displeased with the damage done to a wall by hunters, who tear away stones to get at their prey. But nature? My guess is the narrator would just as soon let Mother Nature have her way tearing down the offending fence. But there he is, walking the fence with his neighbor, fixing what has been tumbled down (be it by nature or hunters or elves).
I looked up Mending Wall to use in a posting on boundaries. Instead, I am left with a totally different ponder than the one I had on sitting down.
There are times when boundaries are required. Yet, circumstances change, and so to should the boundaries. Let them tumble if no harm can be done. Let nature give them the old heave ho. But most times we continue rebuilding those walls because it's what we've always done, even when the use has long ago evaporated.
At 61, I appreciate the walls that helped me figure out the whys, wherefores & what nots of my jumbled life. Without them, I could never have gotten to where I am at this wondrous point in time.
But the need is no longer there.
Nature's now free to let loose its will, swelling up & displacing stones that once demarked where others ended & I began, tumbling down, opening up a space where two can pass comfortably together.
Wednesday, February 20, 2013
Shock & Awe
Over one short week, I've ceased to feel invested in the current discussion on women in the priesthood. I believe that those in favor of a more balanced ministry face, at least on the pastoral level at this moment in time, insurmountable disadvantages.
I arrived at last Tuesday's class full of admiration for Jeremy, for his courage in bringing the topic out into the light of day. As the class began, admiration turned to shock. He opened the class by talking about - even miming - a minister who tells a child that it is wrong to lie, although the minister himself has lied & will lie again. He explained that the angels of the celestial heavens & the people of the Most Ancient Church avoid discussion of doctrine because such discourse causes dissent & discord (as I was taught, such a topic would never had occurred to them, as they were in universal agreement). He explained that he believes The Spiritual Diary is divinely inspired revelation (apparently, there is no consensus among G.C. ministers as to what is & isn't divinely inspired, which was news to me).
Nothing prepared me for the shock I felt when Jeremy explained, in response to a Facebook posting of mine, that his comment re: celestial angels & people of the MAC was made in jest, was simply tongue in cheek.
In giving a doctrinal class, which we had every reason to believe he took seriously, he made a doctrinal reference in jest? Really?
Let's see - ministers lie to children, my pastor is basing his resistance to women in the priesthood based on a book that may or may not be divinely inspired (depending on which G.C. minister you talk to), and a crucial comment he made about the delicacy of having the conversation at all is shrugged off as having been tongue in cheek.
Even though I am shocked on one hand, I am awed on another by the determination of so many people to have a genuine discussion. Am not sure why they are having it in the General Church. If only they would take their different view, their new understanding, and walk toward the east, to the sunrise, not along the old road west.
Allies that claim to speak in jest when what's needed most is inspired priestly understanding & guidance are not allies this worthy endeavor needs.
I arrived at last Tuesday's class full of admiration for Jeremy, for his courage in bringing the topic out into the light of day. As the class began, admiration turned to shock. He opened the class by talking about - even miming - a minister who tells a child that it is wrong to lie, although the minister himself has lied & will lie again. He explained that the angels of the celestial heavens & the people of the Most Ancient Church avoid discussion of doctrine because such discourse causes dissent & discord (as I was taught, such a topic would never had occurred to them, as they were in universal agreement). He explained that he believes The Spiritual Diary is divinely inspired revelation (apparently, there is no consensus among G.C. ministers as to what is & isn't divinely inspired, which was news to me).
Nothing prepared me for the shock I felt when Jeremy explained, in response to a Facebook posting of mine, that his comment re: celestial angels & people of the MAC was made in jest, was simply tongue in cheek.
In giving a doctrinal class, which we had every reason to believe he took seriously, he made a doctrinal reference in jest? Really?
Let's see - ministers lie to children, my pastor is basing his resistance to women in the priesthood based on a book that may or may not be divinely inspired (depending on which G.C. minister you talk to), and a crucial comment he made about the delicacy of having the conversation at all is shrugged off as having been tongue in cheek.
How can there be reasonable discussion under such assumptions & circumstances?
Even though I am shocked on one hand, I am awed on another by the determination of so many people to have a genuine discussion. Am not sure why they are having it in the General Church. If only they would take their different view, their new understanding, and walk toward the east, to the sunrise, not along the old road west.
Allies that claim to speak in jest when what's needed most is inspired priestly understanding & guidance are not allies this worthy endeavor needs.
Tuesday, February 19, 2013
Allies
Jean Houston, in her book Manual for the Peacemaker, an Iroquois legend to heal self & society, notes that the Peacemaker's journey illustrates the essential of recognizing who our allies are - and who they are not.
We far too often waste time & energies on striving to develop alliances with people we think will support our journey, our goals, when in reality they might not have a clue where we're headed, while true allies might come from directions we never imagined.
I never gave a thought to that before, to opening my eyes to the people I feel should be my allies, not seeing that they aren't or that they are the wrong allies. We might have tied our future to our past, dragging us back rather than moving us forward.
The best way to gain an ally? Open up the opportunity, then let others decide. And don't attach meaning to whether they come on board, step back, or don't even notice. Move on. You will be the richer for the offer, whatever they decide.
We far too often waste time & energies on striving to develop alliances with people we think will support our journey, our goals, when in reality they might not have a clue where we're headed, while true allies might come from directions we never imagined.
I never gave a thought to that before, to opening my eyes to the people I feel should be my allies, not seeing that they aren't or that they are the wrong allies. We might have tied our future to our past, dragging us back rather than moving us forward.
The best way to gain an ally? Open up the opportunity, then let others decide. And don't attach meaning to whether they come on board, step back, or don't even notice. Move on. You will be the richer for the offer, whatever they decide.
Monday, February 18, 2013
Parallel Parking (a repost)
Parallel Parking - originally posted on sneezing chickens 01/31/13
A friend wrote on Facebook the other day about giving her younger daughter one last lesson in parallel parking (I assume before that milestone-passing driver’s test). In addition to smiling with delight at how much she was enjoying this as a special event, not an arduous duty, I smiled in memory of my own parallel parking lessons.
Unlike every other person I knew, I did NOT learn how to drive at age 16. No idea why I missed out on having Chief Ryan teach me how to drive – we were immensely blessed in my hometown to have a chief of police who did such amazing things – but miss out I did.
My guess is that I was none too invested in the idea of getting a driver’s license, as I was pretty sure my sister would never let me get near the car. (A suspicion, I am glad to say, she confirmed many years later, saying, “I’m glad you understood that.”)
Dad, on the other hand, blissfully unaware of the sibling dynamics that would have doomed my driving to only the utter dregs of opportunities, was eager for me to learn. And he would teach me.
Even at 16, I knew this was not a good idea.
Dad decided to start me out in the parking lot at the high school field house, but quickly decided against that when he realized there were a) cars parked there for the nearby swim club which b) adults & kids walking to & from. He quickly recalculated next-best-place & decided on the much smaller parking lot next to Pitcairn Hall.
Strange, but true – I was fine driving, if we were on actual roadway. It made sense to my practical mind. I could handle it. Learning how to drive in a small parking lot did not make sense to me, left me feeling distinctly uncomfortable.
Which I promptly demonstrated by running the car up a curb, then slamming it back down onto the pavement.
Dad asked me why I had stopped.
I asked Dad, “Don’t you hear a hissing sound?”
He got out, looked at the left front tire – on the driver’s side – looked at me in a way I can’t describe & have no desire to, then walked around to the back of the van, opened the doors, took out the jack & one of the two spare tires he always kept back there (when you use a car commercially, as my lumberman Dad did, it pays to be over cautious), lugged them around, and replaced the ruined tire.
I was aware of the people playing tennis across the road watching all this, pausing occasional to make comments to each other. Mortified doesn’t begin to describe my feelings.
Dad finished up, put the beyond-repair tire & the jack in the back of the van – and to my total horror, got back into the car on the passenger’s side.
Hey, I was 16 – unschooled in the ways of male thinking. Now, I get it. If he had been intent on teaching his youngest child how to drive before, now he was fiercely determined.
“Okay,” he said in a totally calm voice, as if it made total sense, “That wasn’t something you want to do again. Turn the engine on, let out the clutch & make a circuit around the parking lot.”
“Can’t I drive across the road, drive around the loop in front of Benade Hall?” I asked, knowing it was roadway & that it was on school property; on a Sunday afternoon, that meant no one was in danger of being hit.
Maybe he was trying to soothe my shattered, humiliated nerves or maybe he wanted to calm his own, but Dad let me drive the van across the road, around the loop & back again. It all went off without a hitch.
Maybe he felt like my steady driving on roadway boded well for renewed lessons in the parking lot. “Okay, now make a circuit around the parking lot,” he instructed me.
So, I did. Although there was no cars to worry me as I drove the circuit, across the road four pairs of upperclassmen eyes were soaking it all in from the tennis court. And they had stopped playing & were just watching. Me.
Which is when I went up on the curb again – this time on the passenger’s side – and slammed back down on the pavement.
I looked at Dad, Dad looked at me, and it seemed an eternity until he cocked his head to his right, listened, leaned out the window & listened more intently, opened the door & looked down. Then got out of the van, walked around to the back, hoisted out the second spare tire & the jack & replaced the now destroyed second tire.
To this day, I do not know who the tennis players were, but I knew they had a pretty awesome story to tell, one that would keep their friends in stitches & me offering up thanks that it happened over the summer, that by the time September rolled around it would be old news.
After that, Dad never made so much as a peep about driving lessons. Which was fine by me.
It wasn’t until the ripe old age of 24, after I got my first job & needed to be able to get all my teaching paraphernalia to & from the elementary school, that I finally learned how to drive. A backpack would not suffice.
By then, Dad had been gone for a couple years. My best friends offered to teach me. Using their car, brave souls, since there was no way my sister, who was bequeathed his new van, was letting me near it. Praise be, they were patient & kind & seemed to understand that I really was not eager to be doing it.
The one thing that I remember above everything else was how Dave was a stickler for parallel parking. There was no way he was going to have me take the driver’s test until he was absolutely, positively sure I would nail parallel parking. How well I remember the look in his eyes when, having parked in what I thought was a perfectly acceptable fashion, he’d eye the results, give a small yet encouraging sigh, and have me try again.
To this day, whenever I find myself in a big city faced with the option of paying $$$ parking garage fees or maneuvering my car into a tiny parking spot, I offer up thanks for having such a darn picky teacher.
Jenn – may Marley nail the parallel parking section of her driver’s test.
Knowing her Mom, my bet is she will!
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